Obsession. More like OCD. Spending all morning playing our with fonts, colors, margins, etc. on wrote.today instead of, oh, I don’t know, maybe writing? Alas, t’is my nature…
And also obsessing on whether, how, and at what level to share with my wife of 20 years some of my erotic fantasies (see yesterday’s entry for instance). I mean, for god’s sake, she’s my wife, who I love. Dearly. And lust after. Immensely. And enjoy fucking. Absolutely. Love what she does for me and my parts. Enjoy even more watching, feeling, tasting her reactions when I’m doing a proper damn job of getting her off.
But sharing my little freaky desires with her? Scary. It shouldn’t really be. The penis-brain connection’s not seeking out anything I’d think of as really weird shit. Not looking to bring someone else in, for instance. Or, say, pleasure-from-pain stuff. Just some good ol’ red-blooded enjoy-fucking-my-wife fantasies with a few fairly vanilla fetishes thrown in for good measure. For instance:
Love her nice round ass. Throw on a decent pair of panties and you’ve got more than enough to get me hot and bothered. And of course, I like to cum in, on, near her. But then I’m a guy, it ain’t exactly rocket science to get that accomplished. Let her sit on my face all night? I’d be happy as hell to drink in those juices and bask in that warm moistness. Really really enjoy tasting her pussy, if I wasn’t clear! Let me play around with her little asshole now and then, maybe some playful lubricated fingering or more licking. Head down ass up: awfully good look on her (and another great angle for some oral; perhaps a theme?). Fuck her while she’s in that position. Let her just take over and make me cum in her mouth. Let me discover whatever I can to get her off, hard and repeatedly, no need to worry about my orgasm. I absolutely love to see her losing control because of the buttons I push.
And some kinkier stuff? Well I dunno, I’m sure if I sat and thought long enough there are freakier things that would turn me on as well, but those above are at the front of my brain. But let’s let the mind wander a little because, why not:
Could I tie her up, a little BDSM? I probably could, and would enjoy having her let me have my way with her. But I’d just want to make her cum again and again and again. OK, so that would be fun… :) But it’s not the bondage or the controlling or the domination part, but the making her cum part that brings the thrills. If being tied up allowed her to psychologically let go, bring on the ties.
Being tied up myself, maybe getting used by her, maybe let her do with me what she will? Well sure, not going to say no. I don’t think I really need to be tied up to let go and allow her to do whatever she asked, but again, if it turns her on, bring on the ties again!
Fuck her in the ass? Won’t say that the idea isn’t erotic, and the mental image is damn hot, what with that fine ass of hers. But I don’t think she’d enjoy it, and if she wasn’t enjoying herself I don’t think I could. That said, if she did? Well, that’s a different story.
Toys on her? Get her up to, over, and back on the edge quickly and repeatedly? Play around with her fun bits? Watch her get off? Maybe gush all over the damn place? All for it, if she is. Toys on me? Suppose it depends on the toy? ;)
Little turned on writing this! Still, scary. Just need to figure out how to share, or they are always going to just stay in my head…